apa prasaan aq skrg...???

hurm...honestly aq xtaw ap yg ptot aq rse skrg... i just wanna b free from da feeling of in love... i dont wanna love sam1 anymore... coz it hurts me deeply inside ma heart... the tears dat rolled down ma cheek diz time expressed how sad i am rite now.... is diz a lesson 4 me 2 learn...?? or is it a punishment 4 me 4 hurting other people....???? oh God help me pls.....!!! i just wanna leave everything behind n go 0n wif ma life.... without loving or hurting sam1....:'(

da whole day i haven't eat yet...where's ma appetite..?? gone together wif da tears.... but y da sad sadness is still here...?? should i cry more...?? or should i just let go...??? just 1 thing dat i want.... i wanna  die.....!!!!!!!!!! n leave everything behind... but i can't do dat... i still have Allah by ma side... yea.... dat's da right thing 4 me to do... pray n keep praying....